[Uh, that was worrying. Completely worrying. If she thought about it, she would realize just how hard stuff like that was to talk about. She DID understand that. But she was repeating herself a lot, to give her a chance.

Being alive versus being NOT, that was a lot of information to let her big imagination run wild.]

This place works in weird and mysterious ways. It's mostly stupid ways but it sounds like there's a blessing in your case.

[Jealous, she felt. They were just talking about what they would kill just to see that One Person again, and now he did. He got to. So now here she was, right out here. Sitting in the cold outside like a puppy that just wanted to have that warm security of indoors. She hadn't felt this way since that one whole summer from back in the good old days of High School Simplicity. When she and Jane weren't speaking and she just about went through all of what she could to do so again. That empty dissociation she felt rumbling in her gut. Things felt impossible.

She wanted to ask so badly, but she couldn't find it in good sense to begin to do so.]

I'll promise I won't, if it means you guys can work things out in your own way.

[That felt so bad coming out.]