[Time to top off the ol' sake cup, which he half-downed immediately. Should he have been thankful? Angry? He felt more hollow than anything right now, but it would probably hit him tomorrow along with whatever hangover he was setting up for himself.]
I'm feeling a lot of things, hate isn't one of them.
[She was fine on drinks of her own, in fact, she got out her wallet and started pulling a number of bills out. She may be paying for his drinks, but not his liver. After this, she was outtie.]
Someone gave me some advice once. Something about not being able to change what happened so I have to move on instead. I thought that was good advice, I may have to keep following it.
[Hint hint.]
So, I have to take things as they come and learn how to deal with it. It's what I do best, but maybe it's most prominent now.
[Screw it, he's just going to drink right from the bottle. So what if the mouth is designed to discourage just that? After a long swig he lts his arm hang off the edge of the table, loosely holding the bottle by the neck.
A second chance to screw everything up, more like.]
Got it. Dealing is what I do. [He's had a lot of practice.]
[This was so difficult. This was the most difficult challenge she ever faced.
The more she now could stew, the more she felt that she did something right. It was slowly coming into more focus. It wasn't like she didn't hear anything distressing, but she knew why she didn't storm off.
All of the other times she called people out for their behavior, it was calling them out on ethics and being so horribly ignorant that they were horrible. Mal knew what he did was horrible, so, there was ZERO point to that for her.
She said that.
Left with nothing to slam him for in terms of what he did then, she saw his behavior. His cagey and self destructive behavior, that was something she couldn't stand to see. She said her piece on it. Riye said all she could have. Yes, she was still sitting here.
She couldn't stand seeing him this way. The entire world crashed and he was letting himself get crushed, even if it meant pushing her away.
Things...just had to come to a head, and what happened next was up to them both. Daria just had to know what she had to do, and when. She hadn't figured it ALL out...but, maybe there was something.
She couldn't say anything else. Actions spoke louder sometimes, she had to learn that herself too. Know when to reach out and let the other person that they might matter, in ways she may not be used to in her own bubble. It wasn't like it was anything she hadn't done before, but she did notice she'd been doing it a lot lately.
She reached up with her hand to touch the arm he left hanging limp off the side of the table.
No saccharine or empty optimism that she wouldn't even believe in herself, but actions.]
[Why do you believe in me after everything I just told you?
About half a minute passes like that, him staring dully at her hand, his expression unchanging from its usual tired glare. His head's a little too fuzzy to analyze the complexities of this moment between them, but there is one clear thought he can make out: he's always been so much better at fighting for those who believe in him than he ever was for himself.
If Riye's going to put that much faith in him, might as well not let it go to waste.]
...Listen. ["Lllissen."] I'm an officer of the Future Foundation... Looking ahead is my job. Building the future and having hope in it, I can do that. Looking ahead is... [Wait, no, he said that. Ah, yes, the sake's really hitting now. Maybe he'll just put the rest aside here.]
Look, I haven't given up, is what I'm saying. [Maybe he did for a second there.]
[Maybe in the days to come, it was going to be some kind of uphill battle. Who knew? Daria just had her instinct.
...When had she ever done something like this? After all of it was said and done, she really put her brain and her heart in a blender to figure herself out. In all of her cynicism and aloof nature, she always wanted what was best.
I believe in you because I want to. I know you can be better.
Looking ahead, hope, building the future, he used those words. A few times, he was slurring. Some kind of hopeful messaging like that can come off as hollow. For some reason, I know you mean it when you say it.
Maybe he never told her everything, but everything from his mouth was always honest. So was she, brutally honest. To almost a fault. While "Future Foundation" was still rather Greek to her, it didn't matter. The sentiment was there.]
[Daria never smiled unless she had a real reason. Nothing fake or insincere if she gave a smile to anyone. It was for when people earned it, or something really warmed her cold heart. Making that cocksure attitude he had after it was all said and done tugged her on her cheeks just a little.]
Yeah yeah, I get the idea, Balboa.
[She moved her hand away, finally. Resisting the urge to embarrass the ex-boxer with small doses of intimacy any longer. But it was hard. Real hard.]
I can hold you to it though. I still want to be a good friend, after all.
Then no more Rocky jokes. Ever again. A promise for a promise.
[Pizza promise. Up she goes from her seat, finally. Time to leave just about. But she was going to hang around if she felt he wasn't sober. So, she kind of glanced his way again.]
Right. I'm not a promise-breaker anymore. So you'd better keep up your end.
[He only wishes that would be the last time he'll ever be faced with a Rocky joke. Looking at you, Raiden.
He steadies himself with his hand flat down on the table's edge before slowly rising to his feet, the full effects of drunkenness finally hitting him as the room spins around him for a few seconds.]
[Not quite sober. Which made it better that he decided to come along. Maybe by the time he headed back to the room he would be okay. That would make Riye feel a bit better. Not a lot better but. Well. He was still in that room alone without Luna or Peony. Ethan was off somewhere, probably still not having resolved the scuffle they had yet.
She had to do what she could.
She tried to keep a straight face for the both of them as she hung around for when he decided he was going to start moving, keeping a close eye watch from her angle.]
Onward then.
[You got it, buddy? You got it? Do you need an arm or an anything.]
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[Time to top off the ol' sake cup, which he half-downed immediately. Should he have been thankful? Angry? He felt more hollow than anything right now, but it would probably hit him tomorrow along with whatever hangover he was setting up for himself.]
So what now, then?
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[She was fine on drinks of her own, in fact, she got out her wallet and started pulling a number of bills out. She may be paying for his drinks, but not his liver. After this, she was outtie.]
Someone gave me some advice once. Something about not being able to change what happened so I have to move on instead. I thought that was good advice, I may have to keep following it.
[Hint hint.]
So, I have to take things as they come and learn how to deal with it. It's what I do best, but maybe it's most prominent now.
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[Screw it, he's just going to drink right from the bottle. So what if the mouth is designed to discourage just that? After a long swig he lts his arm hang off the edge of the table, loosely holding the bottle by the neck.
A second chance to screw everything up, more like.]
Got it. Dealing is what I do. [He's had a lot of practice.]
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The more she now could stew, the more she felt that she did something right. It was slowly coming into more focus. It wasn't like she didn't hear anything distressing, but she knew why she didn't storm off.
All of the other times she called people out for their behavior, it was calling them out on ethics and being so horribly ignorant that they were horrible. Mal knew what he did was horrible, so, there was ZERO point to that for her.
She said that.
Left with nothing to slam him for in terms of what he did then, she saw his behavior. His cagey and self destructive behavior, that was something she couldn't stand to see. She said her piece on it. Riye said all she could have. Yes, she was still sitting here.
She couldn't stand seeing him this way. The entire world crashed and he was letting himself get crushed, even if it meant pushing her away.
Things...just had to come to a head, and what happened next was up to them both. Daria just had to know what she had to do, and when. She hadn't figured it ALL out...but, maybe there was something.
She couldn't say anything else. Actions spoke louder sometimes, she had to learn that herself too. Know when to reach out and let the other person that they might matter, in ways she may not be used to in her own bubble. It wasn't like it was anything she hadn't done before, but she did notice she'd been doing it a lot lately.
She reached up with her hand to touch the arm he left hanging limp off the side of the table.
No saccharine or empty optimism that she wouldn't even believe in herself, but actions.]
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About half a minute passes like that, him staring dully at her hand, his expression unchanging from its usual tired glare. His head's a little too fuzzy to analyze the complexities of this moment between them, but there is one clear thought he can make out: he's always been so much better at fighting for those who believe in him than he ever was for himself.
If Riye's going to put that much faith in him, might as well not let it go to waste.]
...Listen. ["Lllissen."] I'm an officer of the Future Foundation... Looking ahead is my job. Building the future and having hope in it, I can do that. Looking ahead is... [Wait, no, he said that. Ah, yes, the sake's really hitting now. Maybe he'll just put the rest aside here.]
Look, I haven't given up, is what I'm saying. [Maybe he did for a second there.]
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...When had she ever done something like this? After all of it was said and done, she really put her brain and her heart in a blender to figure herself out. In all of her cynicism and aloof nature, she always wanted what was best.
I believe in you because I want to. I know you can be better.
Looking ahead, hope, building the future, he used those words. A few times, he was slurring. Some kind of hopeful messaging like that can come off as hollow. For some reason, I know you mean it when you say it.
Maybe he never told her everything, but everything from his mouth was always honest. So was she, brutally honest. To almost a fault. While "Future Foundation" was still rather Greek to her, it didn't matter. The sentiment was there.]
So, I honestly hope you don't give up.
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[Well, at least she's brought his stubborn streak back to life. That's got to count for something.]
Even at my lowest... Nothing and nobody left to live for, I still didn't give up. So don't worry about me.
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Yeah yeah, I get the idea, Balboa.
[She moved her hand away, finally. Resisting the urge to embarrass the ex-boxer with small doses of intimacy any longer. But it was hard. Real hard.]
I can hold you to it though. I still want to be a good friend, after all.
[And she's snarking.]
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Good friends don't make Rocky jokes.
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[Pizza promise. Up she goes from her seat, finally. Time to leave just about. But she was going to hang around if she felt he wasn't sober. So, she kind of glanced his way again.]
Are we all ready to leave?
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[He only wishes that would be the last time he'll ever be faced with a Rocky joke. Looking at you, Raiden.
He steadies himself with his hand flat down on the table's edge before slowly rising to his feet, the full effects of drunkenness finally hitting him as the room spins around him for a few seconds.]
...Hhff. Okay. I'm- good. Let's get out of here.
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She had to do what she could.
She tried to keep a straight face for the both of them as she hung around for when he decided he was going to start moving, keeping a close eye watch from her angle.]
Onward then.
[You got it, buddy? You got it? Do you need an arm or an anything.]
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Off they went into the night, trampling all over the page layout's battered corpse.]